School days.

I don't really have to post something but since I'm quite hardworking today, I shall.

School days! It reminds me of the anime I watched the last time. However it's not about school days. It's more like killing people than having some school days scenes.

Anyway, it's been a while since I went to take a stroll to memory lane. Let me elaborate, I came to Singapore to study. Note that everything before that is omitted because its not really worth talking about.

6 years ago, i came to Singapore to study. At first, I thought it will be a pier of cake but it's like super hard, actually, damn hard. I worked hard to even be qualified to study here. Eventually I pass and get to study here as a secondary school kid. At first, I was based in west spring secondary school but they rejected and me and ask me to look for another secondary school. Then I tried to apply to greenridge secondary school. I got in and made new and good friends along the way. However the most memorable thing that happened to me was that I made good band mates. They are the ones who actually made me what today. I really do treasure them a lot.

Then during graduation, I made my last friend of the year. His name is rooban. He was the guy who always got bullied. I feel quite bad for the guy but some of it are my fault too so I don't really have the guts to congratulate him. Then, he came to me and told me "hey josh, thanks for everything. Without you, I'll be like nothing after graduation." it's like super emotional. I tap his back and walk away, with tears effect.

After 2 years of secondary school, I finally reach poly life. It's the most stressful toms of my life so far. A lot of things happened. Lost my gf, gain good friends, travel the world, and gain so much experience to last me a decade. It wasnt that hard to survive poly but it's hell to fit in and get the right clicks. Luckily, I picked up skateboarding and gain access to "popular club" i'm just lucky to even get there.

Lastly, after poly, obviously, I have to go through ns and you know wat, its also a school! I'm making good friends now. Everyone is getting along very well. I hope when we get posted out, we will still be in contact.

So anyway, i bet ur wondering why I keep on blabbering about school. It is because i'm currently sitting in the corner of nus lecture. It's quite boring. Your probably wondering how come I there. Its simple. If Claire is too busy with school, why not be inside her school. Smart right?! I can see all kinds of people, nerds, geeks, hottie, nottie, attached, single, and despos.

Its quite a mouthful already so I shall end here and listen to the lecture at least. Haha!

Mataneh

P.s.
Physically here, mentally there, as always. I hope I can be more Alvin but too bad, I can't. Sian..

I'm tired..

I'm tired. I'm lost. Sometimes I don't know what to do. I just hope, tmr will be a better day.

Mataneh

P.s.
It's hard to get to you. It's hard to even talk with you. How sia..

Forget it.

I'm back from a long confinement. A lot has change, even before I went out of tekong.

First thing is that I'm bald now. I can't help but to touch it and feel the spikyness of it. It's so nice to touch but to ugly to look at. Haha!

Secondly, I'm fitter now, i guess. Darker and skinnier. I've been training hard so that I can have something to look forward to after ns. I wanna see the difference after two years.

The training was tough and slack at the same time. It's just demanding. I dislocated my elbow twice and it affects my training a lot. I'll try to recover as soon as possible. I'm scared that it's too loose to even skate with it.

Last thing is that, before I checked out of tekong she had the orientation thing in her school. It's kinda weird for me to feel this way. Maybe it's just that army is all boys. Then she made friends. That's good.. Made close friends. Closer friends I guess. My gut tells me to back off and let her be but my heart yearn for her affections. Three weeks without her is a torture. She's sick too. So meeting get is quite difficult to achieve. I wanna meet her so baldly. At times, I think that she's ignoring me and taking me as just one of her hi bye friends.

Well forget it! Maybe I'm just over thinking stuff again, as usual..

Enough emo-ing. I'll just forget this and be myself. If she don't like it then I'll work things up.

P.s.
Don't want this to end up like my previous relationship. I love you.