Living in the world without stranger is not the only thing that scares me; it is also the people that judge me for who I am in this society. I’m used to being hated by everyone or being left out by the majority. It is because I’m just a normal guy who tried so hard but in the end I will be stuck in my make-believe-world where I can do anything without feeling anything. Questions pop out of my head… would you be happy if I just close my eyes and stay in my own world without anyone bothering you? Or is it just another dream that will never come true?

It is because your love is the only one that fills my soul and made me feel special just once in my life. It’s not much but I can call it my greatest accomplishment. It’s only up to you if u will give me a chance to pull myself together and be decent just for a while. Well maybe until the pills slide down my throat and pulls the trigger in my hand...

Blood will start gushing out of my head and I will leave this place in a decent death. I will carry this hope; hope that we will be together even though life is setting us apart. I will be always waiting; waiting for the time we will have that voice which will make our fantasies will come true. I will carry you to the altar even though I’m just a part of the soil which cannot be resurrected.

Can u live without me?? I just need an antidote for this illness that won’t be cure. It’s my fault for having these diseases, but all we need is a reason to live. Reasons to live and to wake up everyday, to whatever we want to do…

This day is belonging to my tears and heartaches. We are not gonna make it if you stick with me... But tomorrow will come and I am not afraid to lose you because we can still meet each other to the other side of life

Sorry for my English, what can I say failure is my brother..

my life is not that perfect but i love the way the things r arrange

nd i wont change it eventhough it will lead to some probelms that icanteven solve..

donuts weird facts..

"A doughnut, or donut, is a sweet, deep-fried piece of dough or batter. The two most common types are the torus-shaped ring doughnut and the filled doughnut, a flattened sphere injected with jam, jelly, cream, custard, or another sweet filling. A small spherical piece of dough, originally made from the middle of a ring doughnut, may be cooked as a doughnut hole. A doughnut also looks similar to a bagel, which uses the same shape as a ring donut."

cut the crap..
donuts is another pastry..
its sweet nd heavenly..

when i see donuts
i can remember things..

like the movie "the simpson"
it is because homer simpson loves donuts..
he was like "donuts are the essential parts of my life!!"
nd "look at me!! i have donut boobs.."
hes weird..
hes a suicidal bastard..
there is this part of the movie when he tried to climb the giant fishbowl..
he was given a choice between a jet pack and a super glue..
nd wat a suprise he chooses the super glue and said
"no pain no gain.."
he starts putting super glue on his hand and he starts to climb up
with every step he make he needs to peel off the part of his skin nd move on to a next step..
i was laughing like a mad cow when i see that part..

another thing i remember is peter griffin
from the sitcom the family guy..
he also likes to donuts..
he once ate bart simpson, his son..
coz he tot that hes a walking donut woth sprinkle on top..
haha!!
"why cant you just be a good donut and slide down my throat.."
"no dad, im not a donut.. you f*ckin' bastard.."

last thing is my darling..
shes part of the CARBOHYDRATE family..
she is named donut for she likes to eat donut..
currently i been missing her for like 4 days
she attends the leadership camps..
im happy for her coz i can see that she enjoyed the camp..

i love her !!
thats all people..
thats the crap of the night..
i love my mrs donut!!

i mean CASSANDRA!!
peace out
*wipe out*

whoa!! slow day..

today is a slow day..

i dont know why??

well im doing maths..

nd im not a maths freak!!

so mid year is over..

time to reveal the marks..

firstly maths..

i got 79% for the paper two

so disappointing..

den 69% for the paper one..

so poor!!
den total is 74% ahhmmm its not to expectation..

my first A2 for the examination...

English..

i got 62% for paper one
fucked up man!!

den 60% for paper two..

even worse..

total is 61% again, not to expectation..

i failed to reach mrs ruby's expextation..

b4 aiyo!!

dnt

this paper has the most suprising result..

me and neny only pass the overall..

but still im not happy because i only got 67%

b3

principles of accounts

i got 61%

somethings wrong with me..

last year i got a1's all the way..

now i got b4
damn!!

combined humanities..

geography 60% well its not

disappointing coz i never study for this test..

haha!! sorry gorrilla-valerie
den social studies 60%

ahhh i finally passed my social studies..

total is 60% (obviously)
b4 again..

lastly, science
physics is 77%

below mr goh's standard but its ok..

chemistry.. 73%

ahhmmm mr lee's comment was "only steady mark"

combine is 75%

haha!! a1 but its very low a1

well i still appreciate it..

l1r5 is 18 points
nd lir4 is 14 points..

so low!!

i cannot live my dream of going to jc..
haha!! nvm i still got polythecnic..

pictures!!

this was take by shiyi!!

the right brainer of the 4e2

she describes this as the top notchers..

haha! i was in the far right..

we r the top scorer in chemistry.. haha

melvin (far left) first 80 plus percent..

me (far right) second 73 %

den linsay (center)

she is also known as the maths freak

she got 72% i think...

thats all

cheers..