useless uncle..

this is my niece..

she is Elizabeth Hurley..
shes my niece..

i love her..

she will 7 this saturday..

so this is wat happen..

yesterday, i recieved a call from her mother..

her mom wants me to go back in philippines to attend her b-day party..

beth really wants me to attend her party

i also want to go but when i decided to go i always remember the time when i had my vacation there..

it will start with just three days of vacation den it will extend until iwil decide to stay there forever.. i dont want to stay there forever because i love my life here in singapore..

i have good friends loving girlfriend and good relation with peers..

so in the end, i declined her mom's offer..

here r some of our conversation..

mom: hey jhey(my nickname) can u attend my daughter's b-day party??

me: ahhmmm i dont know... coz im quite busyy today.. nd this coming weekend..

mom:ohh but my daughter really wants u to attend can u arranged an immediate leave or something?

me: really sorry i really cannot.. if u want i will just talk to her in the phone..

mom:(talking to beth) sorry dear he cant come

den beth suddenly went haywire and begun running around..

she run out of the house screaming..

then..

me: sorry, really sorry i have to go..

mom: ohh ok thanks for ur time..

a few hours later..

i got a emergency call from her mom again..

it was because of beth..

her mom ius sobbing on the phone and she told me that beth got into an accident..

she was hit by a car.. honda civic car to be exact..

she was running with frustration nd she didn't see the car coming
luckilly the car stopped before hitting her hard on the ground..

now she on a coma..

her mom was crying her heart out..

and its all my fault why they r suffering..

the doctor examined her as a temporary coma and a possible amnesia..

i will kill myself if she cant remember me when she wake up...

to beth:

im really sorry if i cant come on ur b-day party..

and im sorry if i ruined ur party coz u will be staying in the hospital bed until u recover..

please wake up..

everybody is waiting for u.. especially me..

pleaase wake up..

i love you..

i promise i will visit u next month.. if i can..

stupid me..

fuck lah!!

its all my fucking fault..

y did i declined the offer anyway?!?!

stupid reason of mine..

im a useless piece of shit..

i cant even make my lovely niece happy..

wats wrong with me?? am i that numb towards my niece??

living is just a waste of death

how i wish that i am the one who is in the coma..

fuck so pissed..

sorry for the vulgar words..

im just super frustrated..

coz im useless uncle..