stop that!

stop that.
i dont like troubles.
leave me with my peaceful and harmonious life.

nothings gonna stop us now.
mymp..

i love my life.

i really love my life now.

no restrictions
and no disturbances..

i want it to last longer.
but i need to WORK!!
i want to earn my own money.
i dont want to depend on my parents conribution.

FEBUARY
i will fly back to philippine.
most probably with keane and gary.
so i need to earn my own money so that i can go too..
coz im still banned from going there. .

okok..
about that banned thing..
so heres wat i did when i was in there.

when i was in there, i drank a lot of alcohol.
then my friends and i went to this club.
and we got caught by the authorities for minor clubbing.
then we went to some police station.
sent a night there and in the morning, got bailed by my auntie..
well thats the deal.

its been a while since igot caught.
well i broke my promise to HER.
i promised to HER that i will be good and stay out of trouble..
you all might think that HER is a special girl to me..
BUT NO!!
shes an idiot.. HAHA
no lah. shes my childhood friend.
since primary four leh..
some of you might know this girl..

i did five news song this year..
-giving up
-mudeye questionaire
-weekdays of may
-when i was...
-another day

few more i can make my own album. HAHA
i hope not .

i think i will stop here.

next song will be why cant we be friends..
dedicated to all my enemies out there.
or to those who hate me for wat ive done in the past.
i hope we can put things back together..
and be stable forever.

HAmSTER!! ily

Advice for guys.

Advice for guys.

When she acts shy - Say I Love You.

When she runs from you - Chase her.

When she puts her face near yours - Kiss her..

When she kicks and punches you - Hold her tight.

When she is silent - She's thinking of how to say I love you.

When she ignores you - She wants all you attention.

When she pulls away - Grab her by the waist and never let go.

When you see her at her worst - Tell her she's Beautiful.

When she screams at you - Tell you love her; But you have to mean it.

When you see her walking - Sneak up behind her and grab her by the waist.

When she's scared - Hold her and tell her everything will be okay cause she's with you.

When she looks like something is the matter - Kiss her and tell her not to worry.

When she holds your hand - Play with her fingers.

When she says she's cold - Move closer

When she walks away and looks in the distance - Walk up beside her and talk to her.

When she flirts with you - never turn her down or ignore her.

when its just you and her in the room - Ask her to stay a little longer.

Compliments, Compliments, Compliments!Girls - You don't really need any tips.

Just be yourself and let the boy do the work for once!

DONE DONE!!

HAMSTER! i will work hard!

next song will be

mayday parade- walk on water or down.

nice song!!

new day.

went out with my hamster.


i think i starting to love my hamster.

HAHA

be mine.

bye.

HAMSTER!

decode by paramore.

what a day!

DAMN! that was great.

we went to wild wild wet today.

me, keane linsay and chingwee..

i had a lot of fun..

i mean seriously,..

we went to that high thingy ride.

it was SCARY!!!

i was like, ARRRHHGHGHGHFRHGRHGSHDGR!!!!!11

then the ular-lah ride..

it was ok..

just its quick changing for the camera to tick. .

HAHA!!

we went to all the ride except the bike riding thingy.

HAHA!!

i love this day.

im with some of my close friends..

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!

aiyah.

just great.

well tonite its happening again..

SHIT!

im losing it.

AGAIN!!

all i think about was that thing.

WHO CAN HELP ME?!?

but its confidential..

only few people know..

if it breaks out,

i will be DEAD!!

grrrrrrr..

thats my day.

next song will be i'll be therefor you..

i dedicate this song to my friends..

LOVE YOU !

so it ends..

finally, im finish with o level.
now, i can concentrate to things i always wanted to do..
like, writing songs.
im done with..
sleepless nights,
eyebags,
and exams..


unfortunately, i will be flying off today..
flying to moscow..
going to meet kathylyn and her parents.
for some parties..
i hope it will not be cancel.
so that i can rest my mind.
and i will be away to problems,
sadness,
and alone-ness..

sigh..
my bags are packed adn ready to go..
so bye to all..
wish me a safe trip, when you see this post..
well, if you r still my friend..
u can msg me until 11 pm tonite.
i will really appreciate it..
i know that i will be only away for a few days,
i have this bad feeling that it will be a bad trip so please,
people, wish me a safe trip for the last time, maybe..


my week will be super pack!!
today- fly to russia..
wed. - arrival, and meet the niles..
thurs. - birthday party of kathylyn.
- fly back to singapore.
fri. - 2 am arrival in singapore..
then in the afternoon, i got jamming with WANTED..
and lastly, at night, i havechurch event that i cannot risk to miss..

aiyah..
im gonna die soon!
if this schedule keeps going,
and going,
and going..

i dont have my distress-er..
aiyah, wat to do?!?!
maybe i will just go to sleep after this.

gary and melvin went to my house today!!
we watched movie.
it was ok..
then ate our dinner..

i think thats all for now.
another nice song from stephen speaks.
that really connects with the travelling thingy.
passengers seat..
bye to all.. .
see you FRIDAY!

new post.

sigh..
i hate my throat..
its like killing me..
it started this morning, when i woke up, i wnat to go to school so that i can have my science remiedial.
but this throat of mine, suddenly crashes..
i suddenly feeling bloody, and i started spitting blood all over the floor..
i dont how much longer i can hide this to my parents..
okok. CHANGE TOPIC!!

i am suppose to post about hte new WANTED song.
but in the end i cant post it..
you know why?? .. coz its too horrible..
HAHA!!
well i will just post the title..
and a little bit of lyrics..


weekdays of may

wanted

at the oceans avenue
im left in the dark without you by my side
and i thought it'll be forever and we thought it will never fade away easily.

another day geos by without you by my side.
you can never understand that youre the only one i got.

monday is such a drag.
tuesday is so sad.
wednesday blues is not over yet
youre the best that i cannot get.
thursday is my day.
while friday is mayday.

....

i havent finish the second verse..
it took me all night to figure out just that part of the song.
then it goes..

...

you obviously love her when shes with me.
when she loved and cared for me.
now i totally lost her.
when you took her away from me.

now im left in this world.
in this cruel cruel world.
and now is the start of the month of may.
i need just a part of you in my life.

...

then i dont know how to put it up together..
HAHA!!
its too cheesy..
im planning to change everything..
maybe about EGGS??
HAHA!!


thanks to youtube musicians, they always teach me how to compose nice song..
special thanks to:
KEVJUMBA
HAPPYSLIP
DAVID CHOI
KINA GRANNIS..

you guys are the best..
thats my time,..


k im leaving you with the song that captured all hearts in youtube.
by kina and david
my time with you

as promise, PICTURES!!

ok, folks..
as promise, this are the photos of the people i featured in the last post.
some of this are not their current pic but its fine.
some of them are new one..
ok enjoy..

ok this girl is biance the first one.
she looks old, I KNOW!!! HAHA!!

then the girl in the left side is nadine.
yah shes fierce.. dont be fool by her looks..
then the right girl is liezl..
yah, she is half japanese..

mary, the sweetest one..

i took this photo during our recogniton..

i was beside her, i cut it out coz i look very blur.. HAHA!!

this girl is the famous, sherryl..
shes the rocker chique..
i bet her hair now is color red..
coz shes a big fan of parramore..


jesse lewis..
half canadian half spanish..
i just got this pic when she was online, minutes ago..
i bet she freaking mad right now..



my life.. kathylyn..
she changed a lot..
dont forget the new installed braces..
quite weird for her to have one..

yah the famous four hour relationship girl.
ashly..
by her looks, u can tell that she can be very jealous very easily..



krishia, she insisted that i put the photo that she with me..
she said that if i didnt, she will tell her mom about this blog..
HAHA!!
ok there you go, krishia..

last but not the least,
HER.. trust me she everytime do this.

DONE!!
ok thats the pictures of the girls that ive been with..
quite saddening when i look back to this memories..
but lifes go on..
and on,
and on,
and ON!!



sigh.. so the next post will be the WANTED new song..
i composed it, and its not finish yet.
so it will be just a glimpse..
HAHA!! okok.
thats all for now..

sorry if i posted photots of you all..

im SORRY!! HAHA!!

i will not do that again..

bye! bye!



thunder by boys like girls..

poly life, here i come!.

poly life, will be a fun time for me, i guess.
no more naggy teachers, no more hopeless dreams,and most definitely i can make my new image.
i just hope i make something that i can stick on for the rest of the year.unlike my secondary 4 life, it will be smooth sailing.


yah, sec 4 life, sigh.. it was a year of regrets, hates, loves, excitement, and anger..
well all i can say is that, its been hard and easy..
i became more procastinated, and so easy to pleased.
but in reality, im far from my characteristics in sec 4.
but ive changed a lot and all i could do is to accept wat ive done.



aiyah, believe me, nobody can survive my life, except for me.
my life is not for the person who can faint easily.
ive experienced, 15 deaths, 10 breakups, a divorce, and a couple of suicides.


15 DEATHS
MRS gramonte, she died because of the accident in the side of the cliff.
it was a camp of my frineds in scouts, back in philippine.
it was just last year, before christmas.then i cant recover after that.
it took me all year to brush it out of my system.
12 of my clasmmate died with her in that tragedy.
10 of it was my close friend. for the entire holiday, i was too busy to go to their funerals and give respect.

MR jebulan, he was my art teacher and a good friend.
he died because he stepped on the christmas lights.
it happenned when i was in primary six. all of my classmate cried, including me.
it was because he is just too good to die.
all of my classmate experienced their first death in life.
but for me, it wasnt my first time. before that incident , i lost my entire world when my best friend, my battle armor, and my wall, Julius rejuso,
died of incident he didnt even see it coming.
he was gangbanged.
and beaten to death, after that, his body was dumped in the lake.
i swear its all true.
its my life that sucks.
i keep asking GOD whether its his doings for me so that i can make myself stronger.
i feel very sad when i keep talking bout this persons.


sigh, i hate to trip down the memory lane, but i must, because, i usually do this when the a new year comes.


10 BREAKups.


bianca, she was my first gf, i dont know how we worked out.
it was a sudden expression from her,
i still remember the pick up lines we used, "only idiot can love me for who i am,"
"i can be that idiot, if you want."
we didnt last that long, only for 2 months.

nadine, she was forgettable, because she is too wild.
GIRL GANGSTER?!?!
but shes fun and we share the same interest.
we lasted for 3 weeks.
i cant forget the reason why we broke up, its because she tot that im leaving and go to other place. quite stupid reason.


mary. shes the sweetest one.
HAHA!! she was quiet, and loved me like theres no tmr.
but she was taken away from me by the DEPARTMENT OF EDUCATION!!
she was shifted another school.
it was a fun 2 months.

then comes, sherryl, the rocker chique.
she inspired me to be a musician.
she was like u must learn all the musical instrument to play it to me.
then she was shifte to band camp.
then we never see each other again.
2.2 months. sigh.


then the half canadian half spanish, jesse lewis.
she was amazing. she taught me how to handle women.
she was my best friend.
then she went back to canada.
2, months??, no!! WEEKS!!


then, KATHYLYN NILES.
she was my life!! i love her so much that i could kill a rat.
she was my childhood friend.
currently she visited me , here in singapore. i miss her!!
i known her for 7 years now.
she used to beat me up. whenever i got dumped by my exgf.
shes very supportive.
lovely, one year and three months..
she moved to moscow, our heart was broken to bits and pieces.
it was like a rocket just came to our place and bombed us two.
i cried like her when we broke UP!!
she made me feel wat true love truly is.



then, it was ashley, it was the fastest relationship i ever had!!
it was only 4 hours. HAHA!!
because she is TOO protective!!
she saw me with my friend who is a girl, named liezl.
then she was too jealous,and broke up with me.


then after that me and liezl took the stage.
shes half japanese.
HAhA she was very quiet but very open.
and she dont care if people r looking at us..
we lasted for 4 months.
currently shes my close friends.
if ur too curious to know her, u can see her in my friendster.



nine, it was krishia..
it lasted for a month. when i went back.
shes the only girl who was with me when i visited all my dead friend's funeral.
yah, it was last year.
we broke up coz shes too secretive.
i didnt know that she has a kid.
yah, she gave birth to a boy. when she was only sec 2
now we r close friends, asnd treat each other as brother and sister.


lastly, cassie.
she was th e most current.
i dont want elaborate more.
the second girl that made me cry my heart out.
lovely 6 months of pure love, well for me that is.

all this girls is still in contact with me...
maybe next post will be their photos.
MAYBE!!


DIVORCE.
sigh. i dont want to think about it.



suicide.
normal.
quite a few i guess.
HAHA!! go see my body urself.. HAHA


k thats all the time i have.
see you nest post.

next song will be THAT GIRL. by david choi.
for the people like me, who was dumped for so many times!!
HAHA! okok..
BYE!!

sorry to all the people who are featured.
and thank you for the time that you all given me.
AND!! my msn crashed so many times already!!
somebody help!!

life goes on.

I'm done!

thanks to kathylyn.

she told me everything.

im fine now.

everythings is in place.

and im ready to go poly, or jc..

put everything in the past and find a better girl..

that wont be easy as it looks but thats ok!

coz all i need is my friends, my bandmates, classmates, and my family.

and of course with the help of my GOD..

new leaf has been turn. and im changing everything.

and i mean EVERYTHING...

so i wtched this show on how to make little rockers.

and im totally crushed by these song..

it is so cool...

in the blink of an eye..

sigh. sad day for me. and happy day for some.
i dont know lah.
it happens so fast i cant take it..

sigh move on!!
but i cant..
i can still remember things that makes me love you like crazy..

but currently,

I hate musicals,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate shaw house,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate monkeys,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate donuts,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate the elevator in the LRT,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate the void deck,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate staying back in school,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate orange,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate blog,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate MSN,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate webcam,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate west coast,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate barbeque,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate photo taking,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate promises,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate drama,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate skinnies,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate lucky plaza,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate far east plaza,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate long john silver,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate my handphone,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate counselling room,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate luxor,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate dj max,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate guitar,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate capo,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate libraries,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate o level social studies paper,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate end of year results,
coz it reminds me of HER.
i hate b3 grade,
coz it reminds me of HER


but i dont want to forget.
i want to keep loving HER..

i dont care if she erase me from the face of the earth..
well i will just keep on loving.

and to people i heard that wants us to break since the first month..
well happy for you all..
if i find out who you are,
i will make you wish that there is no tmr..

correction, i will not change anything in my blog..
eventhough
SHE already changed it, i still feel the same way.

i just wish HER, goodluck in everything you do.
and any problem, im just here..
and if any guy wants to hurt you..
i will hunt them and make them wish that they dont exist...

i will still stand behind my words..
"i will wait for u until u graduated and go poly or jc.."
remember that? HAHA nvm.


and for glenn,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
quite late lah hor..
but sorry lah..
wrong timing leh..
next time i will give you ur birthday bash..
HAHA


lets not be affected..
-mozakz-

jedeteste

happenings..

boy: i love you.

girl: . . .

boy: wat can i do to make you love me again?

girl . . .

boy: do you still love me?

girl: . . .

boy: can you please speak up? i'm begging you.

girl: ok.

boy: thats all??

girl: -.-

boy: alright thats it. see you in the other side.
(gunshot)

the boy died but the girl is still the same.

girl: OK. (leaves)