tired

tired..

i still love u sam.
damn it lah.
how can i hate someone i truly treasure and love.
sigh..

waiting.

its wrong but it felt so right..

have u ever felt like you've done something you know its wrong but u still keep on doing it coz u feel good?
ive done things like those things.
its really wrong but i cant help but to do it again and again and again..

there was this time, me, my friend and my friends gf is a circle of friend.
we are super close.
so close that people might think that we r siblings.
but the truth was josiah(my friend) and liezl(gf) are together.
i helped him to get her.
and at times that liezl get very sad or something she will always come running to me.
obviously she cries alot.
and then, she will ask me "ey, y ur bestfriend like to hurt my feelings? "
then i was like, " its OUR bestfriend. plus ur bf. i dont know "
as time pass, she fallen for me, and i did the same for her.
but the wrong part is she is still attached to my bestfriend.
we loved each other in secret.
at last, one day, when my bestfriend knew all about it, he came to me and ask wat happen..
then i was like "its ur fault, im taking her away from you, your not fit to be her bf. "
then he punched me straight to my face.
sigh.. its SUPER painful.
i didnt do anything coz i know its wrong.
so in the end, i have a broken nose and we are back from being friend.
but liezl went away.

well, enough of the soap opera tidbits of my life.

today was an ok day.
first of with ematl.
it was fun as always.
the teacher really amazes me..
coz eventhough we do all the talkings, he will never get angry.
and plus, he can relate to wat the BOYS talking about.
will it be pervetic things or just plain lame jokes.
i hope we can still be together with him through this year and next year.
he is just too hip and cool to be replace by some old teachers.
HHAHA!!

then went to etech..
it was super confusing man..
me, nilesh and zack was like "mother father children, father mother children"
it was the code we did ofr the left hand rule and the right rule.
then we did some past paper test.
it was pretty easy.
it can give you 80 marks straight just answering 4.1 qns.
i hope this coming mid semester test will be like that.
but still i will study so that i can be at the top students board.
i want to prove something.
something that the teachers wont expect from a DMA people.
i want them to know that being a DMA student is not as low as they think.
i want to prove them wrong and let them say to themselves "darn it.. i didnt see that coming."

then after that, we went to the cafe.
and eat some delicious pie.
seriosly,. it was scrumptious.
i was like want to but another one but i scared no money left.
HAHA!
it felt like drugs but not better than sex.
HAHA! NILESH!!
ohh yah! theres a new love triangle !
it was super secret so i wont say anything.
just to let you all know, its only one gender to one gender to one gender.
HAHA!
i think some ofyou know.

then went to take maths test.
i thought it was super tough..
but ithink its quite easy.
but i think its only my luck
coz i had theeasiest type of paper. the white paper.

then did some meeting for onow.
luckilly fred allowed the groups to collab.
thanks fred.
off to do something great.

i think thats all.

mataneh!!


p.s.
u miss him = u still love him
hidden agenda will not get you wat u want.
just keep ur eye on the prize
cheers!!


epic FAILURE!!
jeannie!!
she was like "DATUU DATUU!!"
i was suppose to be " DOTAA DOTAA!! "
we were like laughing our ass off.
HAHA!!

i can see my future with u, but without him.

My Everything -- Cathy Nguyen

girl theres no one that gets me the way that you do
i just cant explain it theres something bout you
that gets my emotions all tangled insideno matter how i try
i just cannot hidewhat i feel when you simply walk past my way
when you smile it shines bright and you make my day
i sit here all alone thinking about you day and night
girl to me it feels so right


i just want you closecoz you make me smile
i just cannot get you off my mindwith each kiss
you blow me awayand without you i think id go crazy
for your love i would do anything
coz to me ...
you are my everything


boy theres no one that gets me the way that you could
i just cant explain it theres something you do
the stars shine much brighter when im with you
and when you kiss my lipsi feel so brand new
boy you always know when im feeling down
and you know how to turn my frown upside down
all the cute things you do simply tickle my hear
tboy we'll never be apart


i just want you close
coz you make me smilei just cannot get you off my mind with each kiss
you blow me awayand without you i think id go crazy
for your love i would do anything
coz to me ..
.you are my everything


all my dreams have come true when you walked in my life
it seems so unreal im so glad that youre mine
im so glad to be yours its too good to be true
but i know this is real and that i love you

i just want you close
coz you make me smile
i just cannot get you off my mind
with each kiss
you blow me away
and without you i think id go crazy
for your love i would do anything
coz to me ...
you are my everything

--

the title, says it all.
wah!! really bad timing.
i should have met you when he wasnt around AT ALL!!
HAHA!
anyway, i love the way we r now.



ePIC FAIL!
another bitchy teacher entered the cprog class of ours.
she was like writing on the board, then suddenly she flicked the marker too hard and it flew away.
HAHA!!
no one dares to laugh coz she super strict!
but guys, try to tear down the bitchy lady.
plus the guy coming this fri.
create havoc or something.

DMA/1A/03 = HAVOC!

its OUR time now..

baby, its OUR time now.
i think its time for us to love and be love.
why not??
HAHA! it doesnt makes sense but kenix know wat im talking about.
i think..
HAHA!

today was a super late day..
my class starts at 1..
it starts with ematl.
plus a pop quiZ!!
its not really a quiz but i treat it as a quiz.
i really didnt study.
but at least, i knew some of the answer.
without looking into the notes, ofcourse..
ohh yah!! i manage to slip through zarrah's bracelet!!
greatest accomplishment seh..
HAHA!

kaiser!! wat have u done to urself??
u become something i didnt expect of u to become..
HAHA! i know u all know lah hor.. HAHA!
nvm lah. i'll be ur partner. HAHA!

then went to kfc for brunch..
i ate alot man..
i think i gained some fats already.
HAHA! training will help to shape myself up..
HAHA!

after that, etech!!
it was super fun..
especially when people teach the class and terence keep saboing them..
HAHA!
at least i had some lights upon the topic..
xuiqiang is a genius man!!
HAHA!
hopefully, i can manage to pass my kirchoff law.
i HOPE!!

then the class ended. and we decided to study maths tmr!!
coz i have a little quiz on that topic this coming thurs.

then went straight to meet kenix.
we watched a movie titled, THE UNINVITED!!
it was super awesome!!
we were like "damn nice movie."
i would like to recommend that movie to everyone.
an unexpected ending and a super cool twist! HAHA!
i had a great time kenix.
THANK YOU.
we will do that again, if u want lah.

i think thats all..

mataneh!

p.s.
keep on smiling.
im still mesmerize by ur smile.
so cheerup!


epic faIL!!!
rare ocassions that a teacher did some epic failures.
but today, our etech teacher was like "melissa! melissa! try doing the other question. MELISSA!!"
but then she was calling jeanie.
then jeannie was like"huh??"
the teacher was about to call her another time, then nilesh said "thats not melissa. melissa is just behind you.. "
then the teacher's reaction was like " ohh.. YAH!. okdo ur work"
HAHA!! freaking hilarious man!!
HAHA!

kidnap my heart.

who can kidnap a heart?
im sure he can be a heartthrob by now.
i dont really know how to kidnap a heart.
but all i know, simplicity and trueness to the one u love is the key for a good relationship.
well, it works in vice versa.

today, was a very unusual day.
start it off with thermofluids.
sigh..
these blabbering teacher dont have any clue how he was being despise by his class.
i mean seriously, he will stop, and just stare at some blank space.
waiting for the class to be quiet.
then when we settled down, he will still scold us.


so just today, he was like, "i was really restraining myself to know who are the one who always talk. but the one who talks always talk and i dont need to spot them."
like WTF right??
i was hit directly to the forehead.
i think he was pinning the blame on me.
am i that talkative??
ya hor..

well enough of that crap..
then break.
i was super pissed lah!
coz as you all may not know, i had a new hair cut.
and its super horrible.

it is because of that stupid hairstylist..
i told him, cut short.
then after that was all blur.
i just went out of that salon having this fucked up hairstyle.

then this morning, few of my classmate, tried to expose this "overly attractive" hairstyle to all.
like WTF right??
so i was super pissed.
luckilly, kenix replied my msg,
at least, i was abit happy.
then did some experiment.
WAH!! super fucked up man..
the teacher dont want our answer.
he said, the answer should be near 1..
then our answer was 0.99..
then he said that it was wrong.
he wants 1. something..
like WTH!! its alos near one right..

ohh yah!!
sorry. Mr. FELIX!!
i used ur doctorate technique again..
but it was my last resort.
sorry!!

then after class, we went to mug@moberly..
to play some DOTA.
but then, we either disconnect r cannot connect.
so ends up going home..

then went to my sponsor shopp!!
WAH!! i like my board man..
but sadly, i can take it only next week.
and its my last board already.
time for sponsor hunting..
sigh..


i think thats all for today..


mataneh!!


p.s.
i love making people happy.
even if its only for a moment but at least i saw their smiles.


epic fail!!
alot!!
malcom slips.
jacob trips.
nilesh miscalculated something.
nilesh mistaken someone for someone.
me having these fuckedup haircut.
and more!!


going movie tmr!!!
kenix!!
horror~~~~

in the blink of an eye

in the blink of an eye, everything changes.
in the blnk of an eye, you'll lose everything.
in the blink of an eye. you'll be in the deepest, darkest hell.
i think my eye just blinked.

it started yesterday.
when she said all those words that really pierce like a knife.
it hurts eventhough it has nothing to do with my feelings.
i was blame, and got scolded hard.
then she said, "dont talk to me. "
before i knew it, im no longer her friend.
thats only the so called "appetizer"

then today,
i woke up with frustration.
i was dreaming of sam.
the same dream, that i dreamt about when we were together.
i really love that dream.
then i was woken up by my brother.
for me, i would like to be in that dream.
eventhough it costs my life.

in that dream, im with her.
in that dream, we are unbreakable.
in that dream, nobody can stop us.

is it true that when u love someone, you will forget everything?
based on my experience, i think thats correct.
i was inlove before, and i pour all it out.
in the end, i got disappointed.

currently, i did everything to be friend with everyone,
it suceeded and it fails at the same time.
i helped everyone especially her, and it ends bitterly

i decided that i must bring out that "old" joshua.
wanna know how was THAT joshua.
you'll know tmr.

its kinda cruel but i haveno choice.
im seriously done with her.
i dont want it anymore.
it only causes harm.

FUCK love.
i wil not believe on it anymore.
i just to feel that in my dreams.
nothing else matter.


mataneh

p.s.
just so you know, these feelings taking control of me.
and i cant helped it.
thought you should know, i tried my best to let go of you.
but i dont want to.


run!! dont walk.
i'll fall when u cry.

can u fly with me once more?

fear of flying

I took a picture of a girl I once knew
I kept it here incase I'd run into you
The look on your face could light up a Room but instead you left

And now I'm sitting with my head on the Dashboard
push the seat back and close My eyes
I had this dream that I was on An airplane afraid to fly

So I tipped my head to the side and I Whispered
to this man that was in the Isle
I said "do you know how long it Takes before we Die?"
and then I rolled Awake

Can you take me back to the person I used To be
back when you were there for me
I Know it seems like forever but do me this Favor please
way back when we were stupid
n'Held grudges just to help us sleep
oh my God, how ridiculous were we?

I stop your breathin everytime I'm around Girl
your body's sweatin and your hands start to shake
I know you can't control Your eyes but I know that your looks are fake

So tease me once and I swear i'll forget
How it feels when youve got nothing left
Well take it slow and only work at it
Sometimes oh yeah...

Can you take me back to the person I used To be
back when you were there for me
I Know it seems like forever but do me this Favor please
way back when we were stupid n'Held grudges just to help us sleep
oh my God, how ridiculous were we?

Ohhhhhhhh, OhhhhhhhhhhhOhhhhhhhh, Ohhhhhhhhhhh

I took a picture of a girl I once knew
I kept it here incase I'd run into you
The look on your face could light up a Room but instead you left and oh youLeft..

Can you take me back to the person I used To be
back when you were there for me
I Know it seems like forever but do me thisFavor please
way back when we were stupid n'Held grudges just to help us sleep
oh my God, how ridiculous were we?

Ohhhhhhhh, OhhhhhhhhhhhOhhhhhhhh, Ohhhhhhhhhhh


this reminds me of you.
and those things youve done.

mataneh.


bottomline, my heart still locked in sam's chest.
sigh.

life's a bitch...?

not so appropriate title but really, its true.
if life has its own personality, she will most probably the worst bitch ever.
but hey! life is really amazing.
when life gives you lemon,
squeeze it until u have lemon juice.
its a good income!!
HAHA!!

well today was a super slack day..
we started off with ematl..
i wasnt really myself on that time.
the reason being was, my friend.
there is no need to explain any further..
some of my friend, already knows about her.
but just to let you all know, its her darkest time, dark enough to lose your life.
and im sharing every pain by wearing black.

then went to etech..
i was like" OMG!! 10 marks for a one step question!!?"
cant believe it..
i havent encounter this thing in my entire life.
then the rest was quite easy,well except for that damn "ketchup" law,..
HAHA!
then the teacher explain to the class, then i was enlighten. HAHA!

then after etech,
we went to everyone's favorite.. MATHS!!
i like sia..
we learnt about the linear graph.
it was so cool and quite slack..
then after that went to eat at kofu.

wah!! super tired lah.
i was almost brain dead.
then i taught my mates about thermofluids and c programming .
wah! then after doing all their work, i let them play CS!!
waH! i pro lah.. HAHA!!
i can be killed by a mouse-less player.
pro right?!? HAHAA!
then i saw kenix with her friends.
then after a while, we went to buy fruit juices.

then as the time pass by, my friends went to their respetive CCAs so i was left alone.
i cant even listen to my songs, coz i have a battery dead.
HAHA!
then i just observed wat canoeing people do.
seriously, it was really hard..
i can see tomato faces especially from liping.
WAH!! i dont want to go in there.

then after that, i went to meet kenix to buy tickets to malaysia.
i was like a caveman when i dont have my phone.
i was like, wiping the pay phone's reciever like crazy..
i HATE germs!! HAHA!
be safe than be sorry.
then met kenix.
we stayed there until around 9:30.
then went home.
i taught kenix to do magic but she really cant do it in a perfect way.
but i know she will improve lah.

i think thats all..

mataneh!!


p.s.
being with you in a distance is fine by me.
beginning to know wats life without you.
its interesting..


epic FAIL!!
kenix!! HAHA!
my sway-est girll .
we were like went to the ticket booth then the tickets are only available for morning ride.
so we waited for her friend to get her night bus ride..
then she was like thinking..
then we sat down and played cards..
we like playing like nobody's business.
then she was like, " ok! im gonna buy the executive ticket!"
so when she was about to ask for the ticket, the auntie was like" sorry the counter is now close."
she was like " huh!?! WTF!! SHIT.. "
wat a good vocabulary you got there kenix..
then we end up going home.
HAHA!
so technically we went there and stayed there for like 3 hrs plus for nothing.
good one kenix.HAHA!


peace!

help wanted.

help wanted.
its a sign which people recognise in the street and says, WAH!!
its more like a skyscrapper for the hobos!
just remember HOBOS!! CANT AFFORD CABLE!!
HAHA! so random..

well anyway,
today was so much fun..
first we had ematl.
fun as always.
the teachers are as hip as always.
then malcom and i played around with the machine.
he was like "first blood!! HHAHA! HAHAH!! (evil laugh)"
HAHA! then i was like "god like!! "
the machine was super fun to do .
we completed all the required experiments so im very excited wat will come next.
malcom really cracks my day!
maybe i will hangout with him more.
he seems interesting..

then the lesson ended like 30 mins before time.
then we decided to eat.
its been a long time since nasi lemak.
a malay food for that matter.
ohh yah!!
we invented a new word. "bangseh"
its BAstard + paNGSEH = BANGSEH
cool right!?

then went to etech..
that was so much fun.
i love physics!!
it really makes me motivated to study.
we did some experiments.
we r like engaged in connecting the circuit.
even kaiser..
then one of the quetion, i cant do.
then i ask the teacher..
the only thing was i forgot to invert the answer.
so stupid right?! HAHA!

then after that class,
i went to see the canoeing training.
but before that, i was drag by my club mates to the clubhouse.
it was really fun talking to you guys.
now in my club got joshua, and suarez.
damn you arvin.
HAHA!
i reallly didnt know that his surname is delacruz.
same as my spanish relative.
then i went to stadium to see my mates do training.
i saw liping!!
she was like 8 rounds leh!!
HAHA! she was dying.
well, i know she can pull it off.
show them wat ur made of..
ur made of MEAT!!

well that was my day.

mataneh!


p.s.
wanted perfect man for liping.
skinny
not so tall, almost the same height.
the hair got bangs.
most importantly, a gentleman..
obviously love her too.
and anyone who has this character please apply for stead.
and if u get in,
u break her heart, i break ur nose.
GET IT?! GOOD!


epic fail moments.
it wasnt announce in the class but it was really funny.
kaiser thinks that i really flying in and out of singapore just to go home and study here.
HAHA!!!

all about natalie sayang.

she's natalie claire.

shes my clubber bestfriend.

i got alot of bestfriend!!!

HAHA!!

we fight alot, and we even decides to call each other strangers.

then we really worked it out.

strong bond of friendship!!!

that was when i failed to go to the gym with her.

sorry sorry!!

then just recently, she went to a underage club.

she can drink man!

HAHA!
i really like her attitude.

but dont drink too much!!

HAHA! yeaH!?

too bad guys, she's happily attached.

HAHA!!

well, i wish u and him happiness dude.

love ya!

peace!

is that cold enough?

being cold, physically and mentally bothers me.
i fight the cold feelings, but giving the same to them.
the only thing im worried about is that i usually end the cold feeling first.
but i hope i wont end this.

introducing!!
liezl!
she's the one the one ive been visiting in russia
last night, i talked to her, after a long time of pause.
HAHA!
so this is the picture from her webcam.
its not really in a good quality but its just nice to have this .

so this one is the so called "couple pic"
HAHA!
she insist that i must take one couple pic
well, eventhough were not a couple but we trea each other like couple.

yah!! i remember this pic.
when i went to russia,
her parents let me sleep with her in the same room.
coz we r childhood friend so we kinda used to it.
obviously in different bed (sorry for the dirty minded.)
HAHA!
then one morning, when she was sleeping.
i took this photo..
so funny!!
i think she still thumbsuck.



well, my day was super draggy.
first was crs.
FINALLY! i finish that test .
the teacher was like poom! poom! poom!!
like one missile when asking question.
but gladly, every questions i answered i get a nod.
well i think i did enough.

then thermofluids!
it was ok.
i think i'll stop here.

ohh yah!! natalie told me to feature her in my blog. im gonna feature her tmr! but i must have her pics first.


thats all.


mataneh.

p.s.
i promise you i'll give you blizzard that u havent felt before.
i'm fucking make sure of it.
farewell.



epic fail today is mark's door opening ability.
he totally screwed that off.

suicide and the media

wtf!!
i hate having tests.
need to study more!
but getting used to it very soon.

well, nothing to blog about..
ohh yah!
about just now,
i met my godsister..
then she told me once again that she wont take no for an answer.
and i told her, "im very flattered, but i dont think i can see you as my gf that fast. "
then she cried!!
omg!! i hate seeing girls cry..
wah! i feel very very VERY!! bad..
im really sorry!
but i think u just mistaken me for love.
i hope we will still be as close as last and ur as sweet as last time too..

well enough of that.
my heart still aches with that encounter.

so tmr, is the crs test.
wish me luck everyone!!
ohh yah!
natalie!
dont drink too much at the underage party.
i know that ur reading this. HAHA!

well i think thats all..
will study again..


mataneh!!


p.s.
ur the best girl i ever met!
show me some magic.
the reason y i reject her.

*updated*
aiyoh!! still hoping for something but comes out nothing.
sorry for being such a burden


pringles pringles!!
i love my pringles!!
wohooooo!!

i love you..!..?

i love you.
three simple words which has the deepest meaning.
it can kill, it can resurrect and definitely, it can make ur heart blow.
saying that three simple word to some makes that someone ur simply special someone.
how i wish to get that someone now.

well today.
not mucch update but just want to update.
sigh..
i woke up like 12 plus.
den sleep again arond 5 plus.
then now still awake.

i think thats all for this boing day.
hmmm.. should i update about kaiser?
hmmm.. its kind of rude.
nvm, i'll be good for a bit and consider his feelings.
HAHA!

ohh yah!!
my god sister confessed to me just now!!
shoot!! i dont know wat to say to her.
sigh..
im feeling very pissed and overwhelmed and confused.
pissed coz i dont want to hurt her.
if i agree to be her bf, then it will just turn to waste coz i love someone else.
im overwhelmed coz obviously, its a confession.
and confused!!
coz i tot she's being sweet and all, for the entire time.
i didnt think that she likes me more than her god brother.
sigh sigh.
wat to do???!! someone help!!
well, i told her first to meet me at lot one tmr.
so that we can discuss this in person.
wAT TO DO!!

i think thats all.

mataneh!


p.s.
soon i'll ask you to be my gf. ~
and i hope you wont reject me AGAIN.~
im quite persistent though.. ~
be prepared. ~


boycott love!
iloveyou.

boy love girl + confession = rejection

girls confession isvery overwhelming.
but boys confession i really tragic.
i dont know why..
but its quite unfair.
for me, i was rejected by 3 diff girls,
but 2 of them became my gf..
HAHA! weird right?

well, my day was super enjoyable.
first lesson was MATHS!!
it was super fun.
eventhough she made u do those questions, i still love her teaching.
it wasnt that difficult anyway.
most of my classmates think of that too.
then she release us like super early lah.

then went to grab some lunch.
i ate ban mian.
HAHA! super delicious plus fried dumpling.
me and liping bought that dumpling for us,.
but i ate like 4 peice then she eats like 3?
then the rest was eaten by nilesh.
HAHA!!
then i saw kenix with that guy in c programming.
aiyoh!! bad influence leh.
no offence dude.

then ONOW!!
wah!! it was super slack lah.
then fred told us that we must do community service.
then my and my group was like DOGS!!
i love dogs!
i have two back home,.
a golden retriever and st. bernard.
wah! i miss them man.
btw, my groupmates are nilesh malcolm zack that crs partner dude and mark.

then c programming comes.
i cant believe kenix ditch class just because of her friends.
and also that guy. .
so disappointing lah.
well, anyways, i think that im getting used to c programming.
then after that c programming,
i went to eat early dinner with nilesh zhenqi and jacob.
it was super fun.

then went for cca!!
super tiring lah.
but at least i landed some cool new tricks.
shove it flip!
must practice tmr too.
now i have an ice on my ankle..
coz i twist my ankle AGAIN!!
pain!


i think thats all for now.

mataneh!


p.s.
waH! seriously, i cant catch ur flow.
maybe i should give up?
sigh.. really hard to make you feel something..
second time rejection?
please no.



epic fail today is too many to mention.
HAHA! SERIOUSLY!!
goodluck boys for ur camp.

i wont even start

Wont Even Start

What happened after last summer
when we broke upin September
I havent seen you
Feels like a long time
Sometimes it still hurts
But I always get by

I still got a piece of you under my skin
Its always there no matter where Ive been


So if I ever see you on the street
Ill pretend that I didnt see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways
Because if I look into your eyes
Then Ill have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

I wish you luck
And I wish it true
Thats the best
I can do for you
Cuz youll probably find love
In someone new
I have to let go
Yeah its hard to do

So if I run into you with your arm by his side
Just know itll cut me like a knife

So if I ever see you on the street
Ill pretend that I didnt see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways
Because if I look into your eyes
Then Ill have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start


i think this song really gives the color in my relationships.
especially SAM!
i regret everything sia..
HAHA! well now, im ok.
now i think i'll just focus on her.


p.s.
yah! thats you!!
HAHA!


another episode of epic failures.
well, the epic failing disease has been transfer to everyone in the class.
as a result, we went to a room which has a clear sign that our class has been transfer to the next floor.
HAHAA!!
classic!
all thanks to who!?
i dont know leh. HAHA!

hey stop! love me?

HEY!! STOP!!

love me?

can you say that to a person and be true to each other?

it will be very sweet if u do that, but u must make sure that it turn out well.

so today was super fast yet so slow day.

contradicting?

maybe..

i woke up quite early today.

then i went out straight coz my house is super empty.

my bro and sis went to school..

then went to bukit batok to eat SUBWAY!!

im super addicted to the subway melts.

HAHA!!

then went to meet ping(u dont mind im calling you that right??)

so yeah, met with her..

and went to ematl.

it was super fast!!

coz we r having fun..

we polish things and look at it under the microscope.

it was super fun to polish that thing..

plus!!

malcolm keep doing the orgasm sound.. HAHA!! WTF!

then i keep battling with him by doing the british orgasm..

if you all dont know wat that means,then u can ask malcolm about it.

it was introduced by russell peters.

he said that, british people says "im arriving, im arriving!" instead of the other one.

HAHAA!

damn you malcolm!!

makin my blog rated /m18

HAHA!

well enough of that..

then we went to eteh tutorial..

i was really unprepared for that teaching thingy.

the first few questions was quite ok.

then it arrives to the more complex question. .

by the way, im doing all the question on the spot while teaching my class.

so its quite difficult to balance everything out.

then i suddenly feel my teachers pain.

HAHA! !they really have some patience.

anyway, i manage to pull through and finish my quesions.

sigh!

well i got praised by the teacher by doing a great job.

well everyone who teach was very good..

all of them was very suffice and prepared, well except for me.

then after my turn to each, i suddenly feel very sleepy.

maybe i used up every oxygen in my body..

so in the end i was half awake while the ther people was teaching..

then it finishes.

we all went out together, and then suddenly, jean nie and liping lost in my sight.

i was like, where the hell are those blur people??

HAHA! ohh well

in the end, i just went home with zhenqi,,

i think thats all

mataneh!

p.s.

we r going well.

few more weeks and i'll do all the moves.

hope that we are coordinated.

peace is not serene.

serene is just a dispersed war.

HAHA! V (>.<) V

so funny, its becomes sad.

tragedies in cartoons makes us laugh..
but tragic life makes u cry.
when will humans learn how to cry in their sweetest dreams and laugh at their worst tragedy.
hmmmmm..

well, i didnt blog yesterday again!!!
i hate it.
then my friends starting to scold coz i didnt update.
is this blog really that interesting??
i think its just full of crap..
some reallyREALLY random thoughts in my head.

so yesterday was mother's day..
sigh.. really normal day in my household..
my dad isnt around, my mom is out working until late nights.
so we just decided to go out and treat ourself out at the new york new york..
it was super delicious lah!!
HAHA! i like!
then just a normal day lah.
wat do you expect!!?

then today,
HAHA!! i only went for the second lesson of the day .
so cool right!?
i miss crs lesson! its so fun having that teacher around..
thermofluids..
the teacher seriously knows wat his talking about..
but the problem is that we are the ones who cant catch up with him..




introducing mr loh!
i salute him SERIOUSLY!!
i really admire his great thinking and weird accent.
but sometimes he pisses me off. .
this morning, he cracks me up by saying an intelligent joke.
he said "who cant hear me, reaise up ur hands."
then we raised up our hands.
then he said that "how can u raise up ur hands if u cant hear me say the question? "
super funny lah when he said it.
i gave him my applause.
its rare for me to give applause.
then the lesson ended with another walk out.

then lunch!!
we ate pizza hut.
it was super long lah.
then we end up eating at the stairs with out "bento"
HAHA!

next lesson was a practical..
i wasnt really good in practicals but i manage to pull through during o level..
just now was super tiring lah.
so far, that was the most mind boggling question for my poly year.
WAH!!
seriously shuts down my brain.
then i needed to reboot it again by playing DOTA!
it really works.
but i still sucks.




then went jp with kenix and gang.
wAH!! they really knows how to acessorise.
HAHA!
i was planning to buy headban but its too ridiculus to wear..
then ate then walk around then went home.
suddenly, we forgot something..
then kenix and i rushed back and luckillythe thing was still in there.
HAHA!




i think thats all for today.




mataneh!!




p.s.
its nice, its pure, and sweet.
u must try it!
its called love!
u wont regret..




another episode of jacob's epic fail!! (sorry dude)
our hero today went to bang the classroom's door withut pressing the open button.
it was natural but still, EPIC FAIL!!
HAHA! sorry dude, seriously..


*sorry aobut the spacing.. the freaking blogspot wont let me arrange my paragraph.

moved on.

moved on?
how should a guy knows that he moved on??
i think, for guys, it is considered that he moved on by his actions.
if he's happy and contented of wat he got.
for me, being happy is easy.
i can feign it anytime i want to,.
but moving on is different question..
especially when you only want a love like that.
come to think of it, i moved on.

well, yesterday, i didnt get a chance to update.
it is because i was super tired, i cant even lift my arm..
i went to my cca yesterday..
i went with kenix..
then she entered inline skating..
while i go to the skateboarding..
well, i dont reallylike the people involve in skateboarding.
except for the chinese skaters.(not being a racist.)
i love all the freshies!
and some malay. and of course javish!
HAHA!
i think i really dont like people who smokes.
it changes my vision to those ho smokes.
i see them as a very violent and rude people..
i dont know why.
by the way, no offence to those who loves to smoke.
well that was my yesterday..

today.
i woke up aroound 1..
then i msg all the people i care about..
suprisingly, nobody cares for me..
actually, im not even shocked.
most probably, they are all busy working or doing other things.
then, i ate my ordinary breakfast with my ordinary siblings.
it was super quiet in my house lately.
maybe bcoz of someone missing in our life..
nvm.. i think, we were all used to that craving for that someone.
and also the silence in our house.

then, watched t.v.
nothing special really.
just some crappy shows that depletes ur brain cells.
then i decided to skate downstairs.
it was ok..
i was practicing half cab flip plus some of the 360 shoveit bigspin
i landed couple of those tricks.
then suddenly, this couple came up to me then said, "can you help us take some photos?"
WAH!! FUNFAIR ARH!?
HAHA! i just took like 4 or 5 pics for them..
then after that, i was out of my game..
i cant even ollie.

i paused and think.
am i ok with a couple arond me?
or am i just not moved on?
i kept on thinking, and finally, i took out my phone
and stare at the candid photo of her.
i still believe in that cellphone charm..
i think it will be very cool if it comes true..

then went home..
sms people AGAIN!..
luckilly some of them replied..
i was super happy.
i dont know why..
maybe bcoz, i just realize that i moved on..
i like my life now.
and i love her now.
few weeks ago, i told her that i like her,
but after that skating, i realize that i love her..

i think thats all.

mataneh!

p.s.
remember this?
"listen carefully, i will only say this once, i like you."
then u do this
"=.="
now i do this,
"now ive decided, my feelings for you is not 'like' its 'love'."
now, give me your response. .
hope no "=.=" or "-.-"
HAHA!



living life is like hamburger.
without veggies, theres no fun!
veggies = obstacles

let me see you disappear..

houdini made the great escape not only in his tricks
but also in his life.
is it wonderful to die?
for me, to peoplewho suffered so much needs a rest.
but for people who wants to die, needs another life.

today, was a very quiet day.
i dont know why...
maybe SHE was away?
i also dont know.
well, it started out slow..

i went to school quite early...
so that, i wont make liping disappointed again by not fetching her..
then i waited at the box seat near the auditorium..
while waiting, i revised some stuff.
it was quite fun, especially i had nothing to do..
then the time ticks faster than before.
before i knew it, it was 10 mins before the time..
then i went outside our class.
i smsed liping, and she told me that she's not coming coz she was sick..
then i was like " WAH!! serious ARH!? take care hor!!"
cant be helped..
sometimes, i tend to worry about the people around me..

then the lesson starts.
ematl was fun as usual..
then the teacher kept interacting with us.
i think its the best ingredient to make a good bond with the students.
then the time passes like a wind..
before i knew it, it was over..

then, we went to the next lesson which is the etech.
i decided that i will teach on the tutorial part next week.
HAHA! they said that expected from me..
sigh.. sigh.. history repeating itself.
well i hope not..
then i sat with nilesh and kaiser..
i taught them some old tricks bout dealing with circuit..
i dont really like that topic but i have no choice but to study..
then i was over earlier than the specific time..

then went to kofu..
i bought some pau..
i was ok.. below my standard but edible..
HAHA!
then we went to the cca showcase again.
i tried to persuade them to join my cca.
well, i failed..
then went to the next class which is the fundmath..
it was quite dry for some, coz we already learn that during secondary school .
but it was fun..
the teacher really tried hard to control the class but it wasnt easy a she thinks.
HAHA!
done!!

then me, nilesh, zack, zhenqi and mark went to see a movie.
xmen origin..
i must say, it was SUPERBLY done..
and the scenes are just too jaw dropping..
too bad we didnt watch it as a class..

then, i didnt meet kenix!!
WAH!! long time sia..
kenix went to driving scool for registration.
i think a friend was with kenix..

i think thats all!!

mataneh!!

p.s.
ur absence makes me lose conciousness.
while ur laughter makes me lose control
is it bad or good?
for me, it was incredibly great!



jacob: *waving at the mrt train.. *
actually, trying to hold into the handles blindly..
HAHA!!
FREAKING HILARIOUS!!
aiyohyoh. stop stop.. relax..
HAHA!

being caught in the middle...

being caught in the middle..
in other word, dillema.
is it really hard to solve a dillema?

as for me, i hardly get any dillemas..
coz i cant really decide on myself..
when i was young i was fully dependent to my maids and my uncle.
but now, im dependent to my friends around me.
i think, i'll eventually find a problem that i must decide for myself..

well, today was super normal day..
i waited for liping this moring but end up waiting for her with kaiser.
well, its not that bad.
we were not late.
the first lesson was ematl.
the teacher really knows how to handle a class..
he knows how to joke and how to mingle with us..
he even told us to join ballroom dancing club..
he said that, by joing this club, we can meet more girls..
HAHA! super hilarious lah.
then yanran didnt come to school.
she said she was lazy to come to school.
HAHA! typical her lah.
then the time passes so fast whenever we have fun..

then we went to our next lesson..
we stop by foodcourt 3 to buy some food.
i was super hungry lah.
HAHA! liping also very hungry..
so after we go there, we went to that cprogramming .
kenix was late..
well, its partly my fault..
HAHA! i woke her up late.
well, the cprogramming was a disaster as usual,..
i dont think i can have a distinction on this one..

then sfter cprogramming..
kenix and i went to eat at foodcourt 6..
my FOOD PARTNER!!
she introduce me to prawn soup..
it was really nice..
then her friend ask her to meet her..
WAH!! super awkward lah!!
then we met her friend at foodcourt 5

ohh yah! today was CCA showcase day.
almost the entire class signed up for canoeing club..
so i just add myself in..

then me kenix and her friend walked around..
coz my class pangseh me.
HAHA!!
then i signed up for skating club ofcourse.
HAHA! today suppose to have a training but i didnt bring my board.
then kenix's bf called.
i can see that her friend is really mad coz she was like trying to get her attention eventhough kenix was super engrossed with his bf..
well, love is really a yarn ball of confusion..

then we went home..
i wanted to go with kenix again but she has already her friend..
so i went to slack at cck for awhile..
ALONE again!!
Haha!

thats all! i think.


mataneh!

p.s.
i'll say "goodnight and sleep well" for as long as you want me to.
coz ive been trapped by your eyes whenever i look at you..
this is really your section of my post.


WASSSTTEEEDDD!!!~~~
go alcohoLicks!!

being a martyr..

martyr,
a saint or an angel that can endure any pain eventhough its really hard to endure.
who could that be?
is there anyone like that?
i think for some, being martyr is being faithful and devoted to the one u love.

sigh.. i feel like im the best martyr.
my sister told me that.,
HAHA!

today was super short day.
first lesson was ematl.
but before that, i went lunch with yaoming, nilesh, kaiser, and jean nie.
we went to foodcourt 3
i ate mee goreng..
if you know me well, i dont eat anything other than the food that my friend suggested me to eat.
if no one suggested new then i'll eat that dish again.
HAHA!
its really harf to decypher me.
especially when i use THAT face.
anyway, so we were eating..
i ate abit faster than usual.
then suddenly, i checked the time,
i was super late.. i suppose to fetch liping from mrt station.
then i ran from foodcourt 3 to the dover mrt.
then suddenly, liping msg me, im in the lab already.
HAHA!
i feel like vomitting and faint coz of my stomach..
then i went back to foodcourt 3 then went to the lab..

the first lesson was abit relax..
we slack around and yet we finish the experiment.
then my stomach started to get angry.
like one hamster inside my stomach..
HAHA!
then we played some paper airplane..
yeah, we have no childhood,.

then next one was etech..
we got a perfect score for the last experiment.
HAHA! so good right!?
then we just do the next experiment nothing really special to talk about..

then we went home..
i went home with kenix..
it was super fun..
then stayed at tiongbahru just to talk talk..
HAHA!
we just talk about things..
then we talked about knowing each other well.
then i ask kenix, how do i drink my milk..
then kenix, said i dont drink milk..
WAH!! i was super suprised!!
i didnt tell anyone that i dont drink milk,,
how does she knows that..
creepy..

then went home,..
then just now i was browsing some photos in my pc notebook.
then i saw kathylyn photos..
sigh.... wah!! sudden loneliness!!
then becausei started browing my past convo with her AGAIN!!
i stop already doing that leh..
then suddenly do again..
cant be helped.
im too martyr.

i think thats all for now,..


mataneh!!

p.s.
hmmmm i wish this bond wont break..
please forgive me for ditching you everytime we get close..
i can assure you my heart is yours..


fred!! u money face..
HAHA!!

WAH!! i feel it..

have you ever felt that feeling of being love??
WAH! i felt it just now..
HAHA!!
its very weird for me to have those feelings.
but its ok.
coz the last time i felt that was with HER.
it was like few yearS ago..

so today was a very normal day..
i feel like im high today during class..
i was like keep laughing at everything the stupid teacher says.
if you all know wat i mean..
HAHA!
then after that we make the teacher really pissed and he walked out on us without giving us any clue that the class has just ended. HAHA!

ohh yah!! i love the crs teacher!!
she was like our dear Ms. ruby pan.
if u all dont know her, u can search her name at youtube.
shes quite famous in talking cock in the parliament.
shes really good.
after the CRS, fred gave us some shitty money collecting thingy..
HAHA! zhenqi!!!

then had our lunch.
i met kenix at kofu..
she treat me lunch seh..
so good!!
thank you senpai!! (senior in japanese)
she really is a good girl.
then we ate outside the classroom as a class ofcourse.
well, not maybe not entire class but its fine..
then ping sat next to me.
HAHA! thats really unusual but i like it.
feels like the last time.
HAHA!
then we went to assault malcolm while going to 7 11
bought big gulp..

then next lesson with bernard or anthony, not really sure..
ZHENQI!!!
we learned alot!!
i lkie his teachings, like Mr. Goh.. GOOOOHHHH!! GOOOHHH!! (low pitch voice.. )
i really miss them alot

then played DOTA after that..
well,kenix said that, that game doesnt suit me, well, its ok lah.
dont worry kenix, i wont get addicted to it,.
HAHA!

ohh yah!!
i saw alot of my fellow campers.
like fad and that dude..
janvin
pq and kim
and that dusgusting wound dude..
that shim dude and that tall dude.

sorry dudes but i dont really get ur names.
maybe during training, we can get know each other more.
HAHA!

thats all!!
kinda tired..

mataneh!!

p.s.
girl:i want to have a bf but i cant make myself fall inlove.
boy: i want to have a gf too but i cant make her fall inlove.
i think this boy really like you very much but just afraid to get rejected.
im sure u wont regret it.


one more thing,
Jacob: i tot there was a lift in this floor, OMG that bitch lied to me!!
freaking hilarious lah!!

camp!!!

is snatching good?
hmmmm let me think..
in love, yup its good to the certain extent.
but u must have a brain to snatch carefully..
in theory, love is all about timing.
u just need to take some time preparing, and thinking how to say everything.
if ones timing got off, its ur chance to take advantage and GO!!
in the real world, stealing or snatching is super bad!! HAHA! obvious!

anyway, camp was really great.
we skate, play games, and also do some fun stuff. .
i dont want to elaborate more but i really enjoy it.

first day was ok.
we played alot of games!!
and we all very sporting to do the consequences.
but in the end, i didnt get any punishments.
so good right?! HAHA!
then we went to our own groups.
the facilitator was khalis and fad.
they were very caring and very supportive.
our group's name is "the alcohoLICKS"
suggested by joshua ryan and kumaru.
HAHA! it was a very energetic group compare to the others. (bias??)
then later that night, we made cheer while standing at the scariest bridge in sp THE RED BRIDGE.
some say, some women jump out due to some ghost loitering around.
well, anyway, ther was like, 1 2 3, WASTED!!
HAHA! get it?
then the night walk started, i was with some girl from myanmar.
then we went to some scary like hell stations.
we were super scared and she keep on grabbing me.
in the end, we just went to 4 stations.
but that was the scariest stations of all.
then went to sleep around 6 am.
woke up 8 am.

second day,
games as usual.
then went to skate!! (finally!)
ohh yah, i fell face first, at the business block slope. HAHA!
anyone knows that place, tag my board.
then, i met janvin. he's a pro sia!!
HAHA!
then at night, we had a dance night..
nothing special really..
all trans and hiphop songs.
not even one slow song. .
HAHA! but i dont really care .
HAHA!
there was this shems contest where guys need to be a girl.
luckilly i was not the one who became a shems.
we picked using luck so i was consider very lucky.
then went to 7 11 with pq kim and the others.
eat noodles by the mrt station.
it was like 3 am!!
like cool lah!!
then went back to the bunks.
then some people tried to scare our fellow bunkers by using the clothes used by shems.
i wasnt bothered at all. coz i was with that people.
HAHA!
then went to sleep.

then today,
had breakfast.
then palyed the "i bet u will" game.
anyone knows, tag my blog.
then, did some stupid dares such as shaving ur head and lick wasabe out of someones belly button.
HAHA!
then we made some letter exchanging..
i recieved alot!!
most of it are spam msgs.
some are numbers and some letters from people.
some people says "waH!! 10 yrs SKATING seh, keep it up. "
then some says "thank you for ur time talking with me"
HAHA!
thank pq kim abi fad and jabes for some heartwarming letters.
then AWARDING TIME!!
we were first in the entire camp!
go alcohoLICKS !!
WASTED!!
then went home..

i think thats all!!

mataneh!

p.s.
come back already lah!!
sigh, if only.. HAHA!