School days.

I don't really have to post something but since I'm quite hardworking today, I shall.

School days! It reminds me of the anime I watched the last time. However it's not about school days. It's more like killing people than having some school days scenes.

Anyway, it's been a while since I went to take a stroll to memory lane. Let me elaborate, I came to Singapore to study. Note that everything before that is omitted because its not really worth talking about.

6 years ago, i came to Singapore to study. At first, I thought it will be a pier of cake but it's like super hard, actually, damn hard. I worked hard to even be qualified to study here. Eventually I pass and get to study here as a secondary school kid. At first, I was based in west spring secondary school but they rejected and me and ask me to look for another secondary school. Then I tried to apply to greenridge secondary school. I got in and made new and good friends along the way. However the most memorable thing that happened to me was that I made good band mates. They are the ones who actually made me what today. I really do treasure them a lot.

Then during graduation, I made my last friend of the year. His name is rooban. He was the guy who always got bullied. I feel quite bad for the guy but some of it are my fault too so I don't really have the guts to congratulate him. Then, he came to me and told me "hey josh, thanks for everything. Without you, I'll be like nothing after graduation." it's like super emotional. I tap his back and walk away, with tears effect.

After 2 years of secondary school, I finally reach poly life. It's the most stressful toms of my life so far. A lot of things happened. Lost my gf, gain good friends, travel the world, and gain so much experience to last me a decade. It wasnt that hard to survive poly but it's hell to fit in and get the right clicks. Luckily, I picked up skateboarding and gain access to "popular club" i'm just lucky to even get there.

Lastly, after poly, obviously, I have to go through ns and you know wat, its also a school! I'm making good friends now. Everyone is getting along very well. I hope when we get posted out, we will still be in contact.

So anyway, i bet ur wondering why I keep on blabbering about school. It is because i'm currently sitting in the corner of nus lecture. It's quite boring. Your probably wondering how come I there. Its simple. If Claire is too busy with school, why not be inside her school. Smart right?! I can see all kinds of people, nerds, geeks, hottie, nottie, attached, single, and despos.

Its quite a mouthful already so I shall end here and listen to the lecture at least. Haha!

Mataneh

P.s.
Physically here, mentally there, as always. I hope I can be more Alvin but too bad, I can't. Sian..

I'm tired..

I'm tired. I'm lost. Sometimes I don't know what to do. I just hope, tmr will be a better day.

Mataneh

P.s.
It's hard to get to you. It's hard to even talk with you. How sia..

Forget it.

I'm back from a long confinement. A lot has change, even before I went out of tekong.

First thing is that I'm bald now. I can't help but to touch it and feel the spikyness of it. It's so nice to touch but to ugly to look at. Haha!

Secondly, I'm fitter now, i guess. Darker and skinnier. I've been training hard so that I can have something to look forward to after ns. I wanna see the difference after two years.

The training was tough and slack at the same time. It's just demanding. I dislocated my elbow twice and it affects my training a lot. I'll try to recover as soon as possible. I'm scared that it's too loose to even skate with it.

Last thing is that, before I checked out of tekong she had the orientation thing in her school. It's kinda weird for me to feel this way. Maybe it's just that army is all boys. Then she made friends. That's good.. Made close friends. Closer friends I guess. My gut tells me to back off and let her be but my heart yearn for her affections. Three weeks without her is a torture. She's sick too. So meeting get is quite difficult to achieve. I wanna meet her so baldly. At times, I think that she's ignoring me and taking me as just one of her hi bye friends.

Well forget it! Maybe I'm just over thinking stuff again, as usual..

Enough emo-ing. I'll just forget this and be myself. If she don't like it then I'll work things up.

P.s.
Don't want this to end up like my previous relationship. I love you.

Last week of freedom

As you all know, I'm going ns soon. It will be exactly week before I go in. It sucks so bad. Cat postpone it, can't cancel it, can't even void it. Hmmmmm. It's 1:30 am and I'm outside my house wondering like a weird guy. Too much thoughts and too much thinking.. I hate that feeling. Feels like my head is gonna burst. Much worse than maths.

Jamming with Michael Buble. Damn his good tenor voice. So I went down my block to clear my thoughts. I usually do this so don't worry. My badminton court is the best place to clear my thoughts it's like a void where you can scream and shout but nobody really cares. So it's fine.

First thing is my ns stuff as usual. I can't believe that I'll be gone for 2 years and spending every second of it fighting and training for the country I haven't been on for at least 10 years. Haizz. Few weeks ago, I'm already freaking out, but this week is suppose to be the "give up" week. It means that all hope and dreams are gone and it will come eventually, but for me, I'm freaking out more than ever..

Next thing is Claire, she has been very strong this past few weeks but I can sense that she's breaking piece by piece inside. Every time I hug her, I don't want to let go. Every time I'm With her, I don't want it to end. I guess I'm in it too deep already. It's a good thing right? But If this thing doesn't work, I'm super screwed and be totally damaged even more than before. I don't want that to happen again. I also think that what we have now is really special and will last forever. I hope.

Last thing that really bugs my head and cant even stop thinking about, is the movie date that we supposed to have. I'm quite excited about it because not only, I can be with her, but also with her sister. I want to make a good impression to her so that I can be in her good side. Yea, I like to please people. But unfortunately, they are going to watch without me. So that means all the plans and the hope of having a good impression is all gone. It's fine, it's not her fault or anything. I'm not blaming anyone but can't stop myself from dwelling unto it. Maybe because she is not ready to let me meet her or something. I'll give her, her own time and chance. I don't want to rush her. So yea, I kinda backed off and just let it be.

This feeling sucks.. It feels like the chingwee incident all over again.. I can't take it. But I feel abit better? After pouring it all to you bloggy.. This is the result of a hopeless "going to enlist soon" guy plus a badminton court plus 50 rounds of walking around the court while typing stuff.

Hope to have a better day. Goodnight bloggy. Time check, 2:00 am. Nice..

Mataneh.

P.S.
I'm sorry for being the always the dramatic type. I can't help it. I promise not to show it and if I do, I promise to deny it. I love you.

Retro style amuses me a lot.

It's been awhile. Although its been a while since I've last updated, there's nothing much to talk about. I mean there are some but it's not as exciting as the previous posts.

First thing is that we are two months now. It's quite late to say this but happy two months baby. There were a lot of funtimes in the past two months that is y I'm wondering what will be the bad and not so fun time we'll be having. I'm sure we'll figure something out. Didn't do much on that day anyway because Claire is at austrailia with her sis and dad. It's fine~~ it's more like a payback to me because I've been out of the country quite alot. We celebrate it though. It was super fun and i got a gift from her which is super cute.

Another thing is that now that we are at the two months mark, it's pretty clear and obvious that my enlistment date is coming. Can't help but to be scared and worried about the future. I can't believe that I'll be in the army at a country where I'm not even born at. Sucks!!

I fell, as usual.. But this time, it's pretty damn bad. I fell with my tailbone. That feeling when u knock ur elbow unto something, and you feel an electric shock that goes all Over ur arm, yea, that feeling but 100 times more and ya in ur legs. I was on the ground for quite a bit and had no choice but to take cab home coZ I'ts excruciating. Anyway, I'm fine now. My sis treated it and luckily mom didn't notice a thing. It's sometimes very fun to have a doctor in the house.

I'm suppose to meet Claire today but it's cancelled last minute for some reason. Anyway, since I have so much time on my side, I'll be updating you. I'm currently sitting on a yellow chair in front of the awesome ice rink at jcube. It's not so bad being alone. It's not her or anyone's fault. I think I was just too excited on having a picnic with her then I went out of the house earlier than plan. I was planning to surprise her with gongcha drink but I guess that blew also. Hmmmm it's fine~ it's as long as she can always be on her mom's good side. It will be troublesome if that doesn't happen.

Until then bloggy..

Mataneh.

OMG wubwubwub.

i know its a weird title. if your a fan of dubstep you would know what it means and who made it famous. its not really my style and my genre but i'm fine with it. it makes your blood bounce and dance to the WUBWUBWUB.

last night, i was doing some "stuff". quite mysterious right? but actually i was doing some converting and downloading. i like making people curious and intrigue about the things i do and think. its because its fun. it can actually manipulate them to your advantage. HAHA!

i converted quite alot yesterday. mostly, animes and some skate videos. it can be viewed in my phone now so that i can watch it whenever i'm dead bored or dead bored. HAHA! i converted one of my favorite anime which is TORADORA!.

TORADORA! is a light novel that revolves around two main character which is taiga and ryuuji. you may think that "ohh these two will be together at the end." well, they do. although its predictable, the plot of the anime is actually fun and entertaining. the ending is suprising in a way that you cant really expect that would happen. i actually recommend you guys, who are actually reaing this blog to watch it. or! you can just find me and we'll watch it together.

aside from converting awesome anime series, i actually downloaded some songs. all of you may think that i'm a pirate and a scum to the society but its a normal thing here in singapore. although, we download music online, we still support CDs and records by buying it in a CDstore or and online. its just fast when you download it online.

one of the album that i downloaded recently, is a Skrillex discography. i know its like a the most hipster thing to do but, i like having different kind of music in my ipod. That pretty much explains the weird title and the WUBWUBWUB- ing. he is this guy who makes music using statics and blender sounds. it sounds pretty darn good.

almost off time! i kinda want to have a slower days because the day of judgement is coming. my free laidback life will be replace with push ups and pull ups drills. that sucks so bad. the worst is, i will be away from my siblings and her. so that sucks even more.

mataneh.

P.S. i dont really like awkward sms and routine talks. more of a spontaneous kind of guy.

Super boring by a bored person.

The main reason why I'm writing this post is in the title itself already. I'm bored and I can't hide it. as most of my friends know I'm working at student service centre at my own school which is Singapore polytechnic.

Working there has been very fun and entertaining. Everyone there is like a family member who supports and takes care of you. The working hour is not that harsh and even the job scope isn't that difficult. It is definitely different from my other job at mediacorp.

Unlike working in school, mediacorp is a place for adults where nobody really plays and jokes around with you. It's quite saddening to say that even though it's my dream job, it wont give me motivation to work there. Doesn't make sense right?? I know! Ok, just picture this:
An empty chair with no name but nobody really sits there. You are feeling tired but you dare not to sit coz of the awkwardness which happens after you sits there.
Studio recording place where you cant really let loose. It is because they will give you the "what the hell?" look.
They always tell you, "ok, let loose! And have fun with it!" or "hi! Please be comfortable and treat it like your own", but they will always give you that unsettling stare which eats you up when you don't really do what they really want.

Well, enough of blabbering. I was late today but nobody really cares. It's as long as you come for work. I'm late because I slept late. I slept late because i watched show. I watched show because it's fun!!

It was monday yesterday so it can't be helped but to come home late. It is because Monday nights are date nights. I really love my Mondays. I get to enjoy my Mondays with one of my favourite girl. I gave her a "well written" novel made by me. It was quite messed up novel, but thanks to her kind heart she accepts it and man it up. Haha!

It all begins at something. I thought I wouldn't even do this kind of things but i did. It's seriously messed up! If it leaks out, I won't be able to show my face in the public already. Haha!

Well anyway, I'm glad I did it, because it's also part of gaining experience.

I think thats all for now coz at least I shed some time before its time off.

Mataneh!

P.s. hope you enjoy the song. If you can't find it, then figure it out!! Haha!

Thailand, land of smiles.

Well, I just came back from a tiring trip to the land of smile. It's quite an awesome trip because I'm with guys who skates and most of all guys who actually can have fun.

We really didn't do much in there but it was really a fun trip. We brought our skates along to skate. We actually film the entire trip so that we can have like a real skate video. It ends up to be only a trip video which is actually as awesome as a skate video.

I came with 2 of my close skate friends. Linus sim and Marcus Chee. They are the one who are super crazy at skating and constantly pushing eac other to the limit.

Linus sim, we usually call him Ahlong. It's because of year 1. During year one, he has this long straight hair and has a very scary looking face. Most of my seniors actually scared to approach him. From that time onwards ha was referred as Ahlong. He doesn't really mind that coz its a cool nickname. He skates really well and the daredevil of the group. He's not the most technical guy but when you really know him, you'll know that he's great. He actually has a gf now and during the trip there was a point of time that he actually told us that he's planning to marry her. Cool right?? Hmmmm..

The other guy is mostly known for his heelflips and high consistency rate. He is marcus. I met him during his year one and trained him ever since. I remembered him with his facebook name which is miyamoto. He is the skate club president and the youngest in the group. That actually explains the nagging and complains I get from the trip. He would complain about the food, the ride and actually everything under the sun. Some of my friends call him swagger boy coz of his aura. He has some gnarly clips inside the video.

Well enough of the trip coz I'll just spoil you guys for the release of the video itself.

It's Monday again! You know what that means, it's date night with one of my favourite girl. The plan was not planned and I'm just going with whatever comes. Haha!

Mataneh.

P.s.
A novel written by hand is better than a novel made to a movie. (hinting to twilight fans. Haha!)

Revive! she said..

Well, the title says it all. The revival of my blog! tada!~~ ok lame..
there's alot of things happen for the past two and a half years ive been gone.
happy 2012! thats the first thing then the rest are just minor so we'll skip that and move on.

Now, the major things.

firstly, ive graduated! after 3 long years of muging and suffering, we finally made it.
its quite an accomplishment to stand in the stage where you will recieve a piece of paper which you worked hard for. I get the feeling of happiness when you hold it with your hands and think that this is the end! well, its not the end, its the beginning.. for most of my juniors, they will say, happy unemployment day! but it doesnt really matter to me now, coz i've worked hard for it and they still have long way to get where i am now.

next is the things i will do after grafuation..
its just army and and university stuff. i am proud to say that i am accepted to one of the local university, NTU to be exact. i didnt actually applied for all the universities becuase i'm THAT lazy. luckilly, i got in the only univerity i applied for. hmmmmm.. anyway, before that, i have to serve the nation. not my own nation, but you get what i mean.. i dont really like it and dont really looking forward to it. you know why? it is because its not even my own country and i have to sweat and die in the training. it will be soon and i dont want to go becuase there is much more important things that i can do. especially i have someone important in my life now.

that brings me to my last point, yeap, she..
the one who ask me to revive this dead blog. she's my gf now. HAHA! that sounds so nice to hear. i'm really lucky to even find her. must be fate! hmmm i'm ridiculus around her. i actually tore down the image i've working on for 3 years but thats fine.. my friend told me, "Wah!!  youre actually missing skates for this girl, she must be really special.". well, she is.. she really is special.

thats quite a long post. i might get used to posting stuff here. so yea.
one last thing, i brought back my old URL. it is because its cool and uniquely me.

p.s.
i like the way it is right now. i dont want anything to change.
it might be quite early to say this but i know that youre really a special one.

mataneh.