dejavu.

dejavu.
its the feeling of uncertainty where u felt that it happen before.
i think, i'm feeling it now.
its like my past is repeating itself.

100th post!!
wohooo!!

today was an ok day.
i was super slow today..
the reason y bcoz i didnt sleep yesterday.
HAHA!
alot of things happened.

i met with liping this morning.
then went to class together.
i was super slow!!!
jean nie said that i was very emo.
HAHA! cool lah!
(i'm sorry if im being too cold towards you today. )
then the teacher talked about somethings that just past through my head.
i think i lost my screw to tighten up my learning brain today.
HAHA!
then it ended.

second lesson was etech.
it was super cool yet boring.
i can do it.
but sometimes, i cant.
sigh... its like a cubic graph.
HAHA!
i had fum though..
my mood has start its engine.
then finish..

the last lesson was fund math!!
i love it!!
i like the teacher's teaching too.
but i still prefer mr. ong.
my teacher now is very loose and fun.
but mr. ong is very strict and straight to the poing and fun.
well both are amazing teacher.

then after that we ate at foodcourt 3
the food was super nice!!
i like!!
then after that we went to play soccer.
WAH!! abu and nilesh were super pro at it.
i was like, keicking the ball just a meter away and yet i didnt manage to get a goal.
so pathetic!!
at the middle of the game, i kicked the ball, and i hit someone.
im not sure about his name. SORRY!!
then it was done and went home.

after a while, i gotten a call from kenix
then i go accompany her to get malaysia bus tickets.
wah!! it was super fun.
we nearly got lost.
but we manage to get one..
so she will be going there tmr nite..
then we went home.
we chit chat inside the mrt station.
we missed like more than 10 trains before i head home.
coz its fun. HAHA!

kenix,
take care hor!!
i'm always worried for eveyone.
and dont think too much!!
im not G (if u know wat i mean.. )
if u want proof, then i'll do that to you too (if you know wat i mean..)
i was about to do it but thou shall not commit crime (if you know wat i mean..)
HAHA!
have a safe trip and sorry for changing ur name to poly..
HAHA!

well thats all..

mataneh!

p.s.
accept me.
how i wish to be a faster man than him.
HAHA!

jia neh.

love = love

is it true that love hurts??
obviously yes.
but wat happen if love hurts you?

i think, love = love.
when u got hurt by love, u can heal it by love too.
sounds complicated?
if ur new love is a pure love, the old love will naturally become memory.
thats wat happen to my night.


early in the morning.
i ate at burger king bukit batok.
then i buy some for liping.
HAHA!
then went to school.
i was super drenched!!
stupid rain.

but everyone says that dont blame it to the weather.
its our fault too .
HAHA!

then first lesson, e matl.
it was so cool.
i like this subject.
i can easily cope. but sometimes i cant.
HAHA!
we crap alot.
me, zack, jacob, and mark.
end.

then second lesson,
cprog.
wah!! so confusing lah.
well, ok lah.. can manage.
i always have jean nie to teach me,
while in the lesson, me and may yan played the card game.
HAHA!
i lose like 4 times in a roll? or more than that.
HAHA!
then i quit. HAHA! i cant stand it when i lose. HAHA!
then i just chatted with may yan.

may yan,
shes 168 cm.
studied at nan hua sec.
year 2 in poly.
inspired to be a deejay.
or a dancer.
or a skater.
shes SUPER SMART!!
and SUPER COOL!
loves dogs ALOT!!
we have the same musci taste.
well some of it.
HEY MOnDAY
like food alot!! like me!!



well enough of her.
just a spoiler for malcolm.
HAHA! sorry dude.


so tonight.
sigh.
sigh
sigh.
nothing really happen but
i feel like i made a really stupid move that made my distance super far!!
well, i hope she forgot everything by tmr.
i hope.


thats all!

mataneh!

p.s.
i'll try to be as normal as possible!

Department Of Technical Assistance

is the title of this post the meaning of DOTA??
i hope not.
i cant really update this on into a very long one.

so i came to school
had lessons
played DOTA
then went home.


wah!!! closing the gap again.
i hope it will be stable enough to build something.
oi! girl, sukida!

mataneh!

off to write the ONOW essay.

time flies and everything may die.

time flies??
i wonder what does that mean..
HAHA! obviously i know that.
but the next part to this text is much more controversial.
"everything may die."
does that imply that, thats the end of the world?
i think, it means that if u dont do anything, everything in your possesion will be gone.
sigh. that quote really explains my day alot!!

well, today, was very usual day.
GO to school.
Take the train and
Wait for friend.
well, the aching left foot is obviously out of the question.

first subject was critical thinking.
i was very out of my game.
i usually ace this kind of thing.
but suprisingly, i got left out.
i was drowning in my own fantasies.
where everyone is diff yet the same.
i cant explain far in details but thats the feeling i have the moment i step in the land if singapore.
then the activities starts.
HAHA! thats the only thing i can do to feign my emptiness.
i dont know why but i feel like there is SOMEONE actig like a dog and a master.

then thermofluids kicks in,
OH MY GOD!!
the moment the teachers steps in, all the excitement from me instantly left me and leave me with boredom.
blah blah..
then i starting to feel the rhythm for this subject.
then i started asking some good questions.
he told me "please keep it to yourself"
that is when i got really really pissed.
the last time a teacher told me those word,the teacher ends up with a nosebleeds.
well, after that is not important. yah, you guessed it, im a bad kid when i was sec 1.
i was changed when i met her.

another statement from is that, "Are you willing to change yourself for someone ?"
for me, i changed a lot. for the better i guess.

ok, next is thermofluids practical.
im in the group with terrence zarah abu sloth and liping*.

*its hard to b departed to the one u love, but if absence makes the heart grow fonder.

then after that chit chatting.
terence caught my soft spot.
the only thing that can make me very moody and very angry is discrimination.
he told me that my o level points is very good.
i really dont like to be labeled as a super smart ass.
thats y i left my previous school.
when i was in sec 1, i went to a public school.
they keep on labeling me as a super smart ass.
then, the bullying starts, "go away! ur too smart for this school!"
that was the only phrase that was stuck to my head ever since.
then i decided to transfer to a private school .
the i met my friends, they were the one who taught me how to stand up and speak up.
they were the "big man" of the school.

so enough of my past.
its killing me.

*updated
anyone of you all heard about the handphone charm??
it says that if u keep a candid picture of the one you like secretly,
she will soon falls inlove with you..
i'm in the middle of that process.
i took a candid photo.
and now, still no change.
but i think bit by bit, its happening.

you all should try to and tell me wat happen.


thats all for now,

mataneh!

p.s.
wat thing creeps you all out?
tag me ur answer.

will you marry me??

wat is it about marriage and people?
"through thick and thin, i'll be by ur side loving you more each day."
well, can people really be together eventhough everything is falling apart?

for me, marraige is a very important event of our lives.
it is one of the days when you will say, "this is the best day ever!"
so, for me, from now on, no fooling around.
the next one will be serious.

well, moving on.
yesterday, i went to school for no reason.
HAHA!
i went there to find out whether popular was open.
but in the end, it wasnt open.
even the pizzahut.

then i went back.
i saw some angmo people.
then i remember that stupid mosher.
i dropped by lot one to see whether they have any laptop skin.
but unfortunately, there wasnt any.
so i just walk around.
then i saw faez with min.
they were also loitering around.
then we walked together.

finally i decided to buy an ELEMENT sticker.
HAHA!
it was super expensive lah.

TODAY!
well, went to church.
then go home.
then 3 pm, i went to emily's void deck.
HAHHA!
i didnt dare to go up coz i suddenly remember that she has a pet dog.
later, i kena bite.
HAHA!

then, talked to some people.

thats pretty much it.
i'll be bored from now on.
HAHA!
tmr!!
update!
-crs test.
-plus more.


mataneh.

p.s.
onward to victory!!

find your voice.

in the entertainment world,
they say, to find your voice, you MUST sing.
in the parliament,
to find your voice, u must stand up for your right.

well today was very fun.

i was very energetic!

i dont want to blog alot today coz im super tired .

this was the gig we went just now.

this the only pic the my "good" friend took.

HAHA! he said, he was chased out after he took this photo.

then, got alot of angmo!! HAHA!
we were like, ahhmmm wat should we do?
were ASIANS for gods sake!! and we r playing for angmo.
sorry bob, i know ur angmo.

then at the and of the short break,
the last song was the remembering sunday by all ime low.
then one of the mosher got hook into the mic cables.
then i was pulled off the stage and hurt my left leg.
PAIN LEH!!

i just hope it wont last until monday.
i'll be staying her for a bit . maybe overnight.

ohh yah!

i didnt have the time to cut my hair.

aiyoh. leaveit as it is.

thanks bob AGAIN! for doing those respectful comments. (i know im a sarcastic bastard)

HAHA!

thats all.

matane

p.s.
im gonna do it!!
tmr if i have the guts.
aiyohyoh. its like a big ball of yarn.
the relationships are entangle and sometimes intertwined.
HAHA!

fear of flying.

fear of flying arh?
i wonder if the wright brothers had those fears.
i cant imagine the world without any transtportation like planes or jet.


worst day ever?
HELL YEAH!

firstly,
i got irritated from the moment i stepped out the mrt station.
there was this guy who like ask me if i know THAT someone.
den i said yah.
then the guy said, can i take her away from you?
then i just didnt reply.

then i met jean nie and mark.
and i tot the day will be better after that.

then i had few lesson after that.
then a call came in.
it was about someone disturbing someone who is close to me.
she was very close to me.
then she ask me i got a moment to talk.
i said, i cant.

i think i cant face her that frankly and tell her that i need to move on.
and i really like this girl who is far better than you.
well, im not that bad lah.

ofcourse this post wont be viewed by her.

enough of drama,.

then we went to bukit batok.
i met that malay girl.
i forgot wats her name.

we took neoprints AGAIN!
HAHA!
well that was fun.
but half of the time, im spacing out of control.
maybe its just me but im sure that ive been daydreaming alot lately

then when its about time to go in the sakae sushi,
i gotten a call from michelle.
btw, shes my coordinator.
then she said that i need to rush to the venue as fast as i can.
its very important to get out practice for tmr.
sigh.,,

I'M REALLY SORRY GUYS FOR MAKING YOU ALL DISAPPOINTED.
I HOPE NEXT TIME WILL BE A BETTER TIME TO GO OUTING.
I'LL MAKE SURE OF IT.

then i went there. luckilly, Amy bought a food for me..
it was ok.
then the practice starts.
i was like,
DRUMMER!! out of beat!!
guitars!! wrong note!!
then PIANO!!! tempo!!
sigh.
i think im a bit exaggerated did all those stuff.
im just super aggitated with the happenings today.

REALLY SORRY GUYS FOR YELLING SO MUCH TODAY.
SUMIMASEN DESKA.

sigh..
then went home.
last GOOD thing happen today. (sarcastic enough for you?)
my dad came home early (wah!! it was the first.)
then he scolded me for not telling him that i didnt get my allowance yet.
waH!! i was so pissed.
i mean its their duties right?!
then, i was stopping myself from saying things that i mustnt say.

so in the end, i wrote new song for the band again.
HAHA! its been a long time.

my friend helped me change my fringe side.
HAHA!
i look ridiculus.
imagine botak guy with hairpin.
HAHA so unrelevant.
thanks bob!
ur a good help with the descriptions.
HAHA!

so tmr,
mark pledge a guitar .
HAHA!

see you all tmr.

regards to all.
yao ming
jean nie
mark
liping
kaiser

see you all.

matane

So Wrong, Its right.

will two wrongs make one thing right?
some says that if u do the same mistake twice, you'll make something right.
but im not sure if thats the exact word for word saying.
HAHA!

for me, i made alot of mistakes yet i dont have any right actions in return.
but i have this incident where, i didnt gave up my sit for the elderly in the bus.
then i got screwed. HAHA!
i guess that was karma.

well, in the other side, karma is a 1 is to 1 result.
when u do good thing, good thing will happen to you.
while if you do bad thing, bad thing will happen to you.

well, enough of that.
today, was the shortest day ever.
we had engineering material.
which is very fun coz i can cope up easily.
but i feel very uncomfortable when DBENs are with us.
they look so smart and i feel very weird,

next is computer programming.
but before that, i love to say that we, the class of DMA/FT/1A/03, can fit into one lift!!
haha! cool right?!
then went there to do some computer stuff.
then the programming exercises comes in.
wah! im left out, well not really.
but mark is a genius in computer.
ofcourse im not.
even ducky types faster than me. HAHA!

then, me and jean nie went to that crappy tuition grant.
(its for my own sake.)
it was super boring.
the most boring part is the last part.
coz they said, "any questions?"
then this guy went to ask one question.
then after that ALOT of people starts raising their hands.
like WTH!!
i was about to lift up my bag and dash out.
but this blabbering guy made the entire crowd confuse oer something.
didnt bother to know wat was the question.
HAHA!

well. i love my life!

sayonara!

will do my best for tmr.

matane!

emotion makes u sloppy.

does emotions makes you sloppy?

this morning, i woke up 9:30 for no reason ofcourse.
then, ate my breakfast alone.
watch tv alone.
and get ready alone.
i guess being alone is not that bad.
although i wanted me dad or my mom to eat with me sometimes.
they both are working hard.

last month, i asked them why they dont usually eat together during breakfast.
my dad said, "emotion makes human being sloppy."
then he added that "i can work harder and more focus if i dont think of the emotions that i must show to others. "
well, i know where that came from. heroes!!

as for my opinion, emotions really makes you sloppy and careless.
well, that just normal.
another saying states that u do the stupidest things when your inlove.

well CHANGE topic.
then i went to school, went to that damn, W12A thingy building.
then i fetch ducky from mrt station.
she's late as usual.
then went in, then discuss something. then went off after 30 mins.
it was the best lesson so far.
HAHA!
then went to eat AGAIN!!
i feel like eating everything in that store.
i went to eat western food with yao ming.
it was scrumptious.

then we walked, and walked until we think of going to the library.
then, went to computer room to slack.
then went to the next lesson.
PHYSICS! i love that subject.
well most of it.
i didnt get A1 for nothing.

then went home with ducky jeanie and ahqi (still not sure with his name,) HAHA!
looking forward to wednesday!
the shortest day eventhough it has 9 letters.
lame hor.
HAHA!

well. see you.
matane!

mark, i dont mind being that guy.
HAHA!

scare me.

jai neh.

am i trying to find my calling?

calling???
is it the call of nature or just ur call to greatness.
well, as for me, you can say that i've been waiting for my call of greatness for the past 5 years of my life.

when i was 12, my father was in russia.
he was the head of the company and they build things.
as you predicted alrready, i never been with my dad for a very long time.
so i made a promise to my self that i will do my best in everything so that i can show my dad wat i can do.

well, my sister's result was out last week.
A+ ofcourse.
HAHA!
then my dad just call us from paris just to congratulate my sister.
like WTH!!
its ok lah.
when i had my o level result, he didnt even call me.
normal lah.

well. nothing to do so just post some random thoughts.

chocolate.
they say that if u never had one chocolate in ur entire life, u cant smile.


bye.
they r trying to screw me up.
HAHA!

life is a maze, love is a riddle

hey people.
i'm feeling very energetic today.
maybe because, i made some new friends.
alot happened today.

i like the critical reasoning subject that i have.
but the thermofluid is less likable than the others.
theres, fun ms. Jenny while the broken records mr. Loh

well, after our tutorial, i went to jurong point to accompany my friends.
we took neoprints.
yah!! i know!! neoprints!?
its not the joshua that you all know.
well, all i can comment about this is that life is a maze.
u can go farther and yet you dont know where is the exit.
same as making friends, u can have millions of friends eventhough ur not sure where it leads you .
it can cause you harm but sometimes it'll cause you comfort that you longed for.
having these words, makes me remember the activity we just had when we were in ms. jenny's lesson.
it was fun, me and ahqi(i think thats his real name.) made a statement that made the entire class suprised because it was very chim and detailed and no rebuttal made form the others.
it was a solid answer which involves the saying, dont judge the book by its cover.

im lazy to type it out, but it was really good.
then the next lesson was thermofluids.
its not as fun as the previous lesson we had.
i seated next to liping ANG.
i know, not LIM liping.
she's cheerful and yet so childish but i think she's responsible and down to earth.
she keeps calling me pig!!
wats with girls and and me and PIG!?

i had a special friend who called me pig, and i call her panda.
i miss her alot.

then lunch came in.
we ate at pizza hut.
its nice. but i got bored eating it.
i mean, i've been eating it for the past two years nonstop.

well that was my day.
it was ok.
rating, from 0 to 10.
it was 7.5


before i end, i would like to make another statement about love being the greatest riddle in the world.
for some people, love is complicated and sometimes understandable.
so thats y, it cant be seen or touch like ghost so that noone can greedily took it for granted.
but i believe that if people who really wants to have that feeling, they will strive hard to see it.
in the end, they will be awarded with the answer to the greatest riddle.

i know, it doesnt make sense but thats my principle.
i live by that principle.
striving hard to et wat you want.

peace

i still have the fear of flying.

not bad at all.

hey people..

first day of the orientation wasnt bad..
met new friends but i didnt make any new friends.
GET IT!?

well i think its just the start.
i'll work hard to get that spot again..
just like secondary school..


plans are made and tactics are precise..


well tmr, i have this spice thingy..
well its boring as usual..

then on thursday, i will be having the flag day crap...
HAHA!
i havent done that in my entire life,
who can blame me, i live a private life when i was little..
in a private school, with guards wondering around me as if im the POTUS


i think its nice to have new experience..
but somehow, i miss my life back then..
when i have those control over the people around..
and i just realize that i have a perfect life back then..
and yet i threw everything away by coming here in singapore. .


living here is super complicated and my uncle are not here to give me whatever i want..
i'll try to survive.


wakarimashita
gambatineh!!

i can say anything i want now..
coz no one visits this damn page..
its ok though,.


sayonara!

yoh!

finally!!!
another post.
its been awhile my blog.
few more hours then i'll be in the poly mood..
sigh..

alot has happened.
ALOT ALOT!!

1- huanmins party
2- camps cancel
3- skating club camp
4- jamming
5- expo service
6- sprained ankle
7- skating session
8- screw up timtable

if i state it all, i wont have enough space or im too lazy to type. .

life has been good to me lately..
thanks to HIM

thanks ti HIM, i didnt think of her that much..
well, now i do...
HAHA!

i think it cant be helped. ..

one of my new friends in the camp told me ALOT of things..
but i'll still stand by my promise.
i think thats the first for me to really persevere.

sigh.. CHANGING TOPIC.

ive been hook with so many animes!!
so ive been imagining alot bout my self being one of the characters..

im really scared of tmr..
coz im not sure whether i can fit in or not..
well i'll try my best!!

jia neh..
thats all for now..

matane!
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